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Soul Rape at WOFF?

In a recent post, we closed with comments from a survivor of a cult other than Word of Faith Fellowship (WOFF). The survivor shared her lament for the “rape” of her soul and all she had lost.

…rather than having to face the hurt of what was taken….. to pick your passion back up…….seems to me to be one of the most painful parts of being out…….for it is in doing this that you have to face ‘the rape’ of your soul.”

I closed with several questions including – How do I go forward and restore the passion, the purpose I once had, knowing there are those (others) set to violate and steal/abuse my heart, my years, my very life? Who can you trust? If I deny my passions, I am denying the purpose for the rest of my life.”

As I continue considering the concept, the damage, the dynamics of “soul rape”; I had to ask if that happened to me. If so, how? If so, when? If so, did I see it and religiously excuse it, or see it and just deny it? The term seems harsh, but, after leaving WOFF and seeing the damage done to myself and others, while inside and now outside, I sincerely believe the severity of the term is warranted. Let me explain.

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Do We Attack That Which We Don’t Understand…

This is one post which may sound confusing to some and lame to others. I will attempt to explain what I have been thinking about and observing over these last few weeks and months. Truthfully, I was attempting to sleep and this subject caused me to get up and begin to write.

In a previous post, I explained my thoughts as a member of Word of Faith Fellowship (WOFF) when a former member organized a protest along the road leading by the church access road. The post was titled: The Day the Protestors Were Beside the Road… https://religiouscultsinfo.com/?p=1947 . In this post, I express my questions and put forth the idea that effective protestors may be ones that don’t scream and yell. In other words, show outward aggression. Maybe my idea on this has been filtered through my personality and experiences. Nonetheless, it is what I believe.  While inside WOFF, I definitely saw the aggressive attitudes of the protestors. It seemed like they were purposing to attack the WOFF members, though during my time there, we were never touched- as far as I know.

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Spring Missions Project 2012- Pictures

The months pass so quickly as each of us in turn becomes overwhelmed with the minutia of daily living, daily drama and the struggle to make sense of it all. Some say that happens quicker as you age. As I have said on this blog before, losing track of the months and years happens even more so when you are a member of the Word of Faith Fellowship (WOFF). There is a constant flow of life which passes by or around WOFF members as they navigate the intense struggle to survive within the group—emotionally, and for some- physically. This all plays out as swirls of emotions, unanswered questions come and go. It does not help that they are required to forget about and certainly not talk about those, who have left the group. Why does this happen? Jane requires it to be so. I heard it several times from Jane: If you want to know about someone who has not been seen in a few services, or is not here anymore, then come directly to me and ask. Many found it easier just to ride out the day and not ask about the missing member, no matter how involved they had been with them.

For this reason and others, I felt it necessary to have a theme to the Spring Missions Project of 2012. The theme has evolved as “Remember Michael Lowry!” We have told part of his story on this blog including his exit drama as well as him filing a report with the Rutherford County Sheriff’s Department. Here are the links to those posts-

Another Exit Drama Unfolds…- https://religiouscultsinfo.com/?p=4782

Former WOFF Member Files Report of Assaulthttps://religiouscultsinfo.com/?p=5001

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“I didn’t want her screaming at me….”

In the previous post, we used as a resource the book, “Recovery From Cults” – Help for Victims of Psychological and Spiritual Abuse– Edited by Michael Langone- (copyright © 1993 American Family Foundation – ISBN 0-393-31321-2). Today, we will return to this resource for the material in Chapter 2. The title of the chapter is “A Little Carrot And A Lot of Stick- A Case Example” by Janja Lalich. The author outlines the formation, operations and eventual implosion of a political cult in which she was a part of that lasted from 1974 until 1985. I have been amazed at the similarities between many of the inner workings and dynamics between this group and Word of Faith Fellowship (WOFF). For now, I have not done the research to find out the name of group or its leader, which the author covers with pseudonyms. Let’s go directly to the comparisons which caught my attention.

When describing the ages of the founding members of the WDU, Lalich writes, “ Baxter was 39 years old, while most of the others were in there mid 20s, which meant that they (with one exception) were 7 to 20 years younger than Baxter.” (page 54) It was similar with WOFF at the beginning- if you just look at Jane’s age compared to her main leadership. I suspect Jane is mid 70s (WOFF stopped celebrating birthdays – so who is counting?) and the rest of her main leadership early to mid 50s. There is another layer of leadership around Robin’s age that is even younger than the main leadership. What does this matter? Well, certainly Jane could/would use the reasoning that she had been walking with God longer than anyone- who is to doubt her? Right.

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My Passion- My Weakness?

In previous posts, we have used as a resource the book, “Recovery From Cults” – Help for Victims of Psychological and Spiritual Abuse– Edited by Michael Langone- (copyright © 1993 American Family Foundation – ISBN 0-393-31321-2). Today, we will return to this resource for the material in Chapter 2. The title of the chapter is “A Little Carrot And A Lot of Stick- A Case Example” by Janja Lalich. The author outlines the formation, operations and eventual implosion of a political cult in which she was a part of that lasted from 1974 until 1985. Why should I even cover this chapter on this blog? I was amazed at the similarities between many of the inner workings and dynamics between this group and Word of Faith Fellowship (WOFF). There were obviously different terms and “reasons” to submit to the group leader- but, as we review this chapter, notice the similar control dynamics and the results on the members.

As an introduction and a way to answer some obvious questions, the author writes, “This chapter outlines the makings, workings and eventual demise of the “Workers Democratic Union.” I use pseudonyms for the name of the group, the leader, and all former members; also I use the terms organization, group and party interchangeably throughout. Since the group was leftist in orientation, I wish to make it clear that this is not a critique of political ideologies, nor an attempt to conclude that the organizational methodology of Marxism-Leninism necessarily leads to cultic formation. The Workers Democratic Union (WDU) was unique in many ways, but nonetheless a cult  like so many others in the techniques used to dominate and control its members.” (page 52)

This paragraph contains a great point. As Marxism-Leninism may not necessarily lead to the formation of a cult neither does the organization of an Evangelical, Protestant church with Charismatic beliefs and practices. The direction of any group is greatly, if not totally, affected by the leader, their desires, their weaknesses and strengths. As with this group and their leader- Doreen Baxter, so with WOFF; Jane Whaley is the hub of the wheel, the engine that makes WOFF what it is and why it is.

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Detox After WOFF?

Every so often, there are questions and thought paths that just won’t leave me until I write them, consider them and in essence explore them. The idea of “detox” after time spent at Word of Faith Fellowship (WOFF) has become one of those ideas. Recently, the question came to me, “How can my true health be assessed when there are “toxins” in me?” Well, that led me to begin a search on just what it means to “detox” or go through a detoxification process. There are so many angles to view this subject; I will just cover a few in this post.

A simple search for “detox” will bring a list that covers a wide range of subjects. There are music albums and films which include “detox” in the title. One of the first sources listed casts doubt that the process of detoxification of the body is real and may just be a perceived benefit. Wow! There is such a varied spectrum of perspectives! I am not sure how far I will go into the whole idea. One thing I am convinced of at this point- the human body is so resilient. Think about it. People living all over the world eating such a varied assortment of food stuffs. Some of us would doubt that what people eat in certain countries should even be considered food. Somehow the body gleans nutrition of some degree from many different substances. What I question are the chemicals and substances which we ingest everyday which I can’t pronounce. Do we really understand how these chemicals travel through our bodies and if they remain in certain levels or are they completely eliminated – without help?

Next, I began to consider such substances with the long complicated names which are tasteless. Well, if they are not tasteless, they have such little flavor our taste buds don’t reject them or sound an alarm when they first reach our mouth. Are there chemicals or substances in our food that are “to protect flavor”- which are really not good for us? I am still learning and am just beginning to search for answers.

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Where is Your Happy Face?

In the last post, we used this book, “Recovery From Cults” – Help for Victims of Psychological and Spiritual Abuse– Edited by Michael Langone- (copyright © 1993 American Family Foundation – ISBN 0-393-31321-2) as a resource. Today, we will continue in this resource and compare more material to my experience in Word of Faith Fellowship (WOFF). I experience a gamut of emotions when I discover results from studies used in a resource book that coincide or mirror what I experienced at WOFF. It brings me joy and sadness at the same time to identify with material that researchers have discovered about cult groups- religious or otherwise.  The years within the group can’t be changed, but, by sharing my thoughts on this blog, I hope to help others who have been in such groups find resources that will help. There is sadness in knowing that those I love and cherish are still a part of WOFF.

Where is your happy face? How many times did we hear that, say that, think that, while inside WOFF? Now, don’t get me wrong, every group that asks that question of their children or even the adults is not automatically a cult. But, as we review the following excerpt, just remember what it felt like when you were asked that question or witnessed others being prodded and pushed to smile- no matter how ugly or emotional the scene had become. Remember the consequences for those children who would not submit to the prod and crack even a little smile. For sure, the use of this saying would ebb and flow over the years. But, no one can deny that “Where is your happy face?” was a favorite for years at WOFF.

In our resource text, the editor reviews different research studies along with clinical observations which tell when people are most likely to join a cult as well as the circumstances around a person leaving a cult.

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